a walk to remember

Jaynann and I usually take an afternoon walk almost everyday. She likes to look at people and things. I guess it is relaxing to her because most of the time she would be asleep by the time we get home. Three weeks ago things happened, I was sick and had to be on bed rest and we also went on a trip to AZ and southern UT. Jaynann was less than one then and I didn't really spend much time with her. My mother did also come over to visit. Anyway, today Jaynann and I took a walk downtown. I look at my sweet child and thought today is a different day. She is now over one year old who can walk and say a few words. Two to three weeks ago Jayann wasn't able to do any of these things. What does it mean to me? It means that she is growing fast and soon before I know it she is going to run and talk in sentences. So where was I those past three weeks? I have to admit that I didn't spend much quality time with Jaynann. My mom helped me with taking care of her. I do definitely feel like I lost track of time. So today I had to get to know Jaynann again. At the moment I am holding her in my arm trying to comfort her as much as I can. Being pregnant at the same time makes it difficult for me to stay awake and focus. I usually feel sick around 2 pm till I go to bed, which means that Jaynann gets affected by my sickness. I don't play and chase her around like I used to. Soon Jaynann is going to be a big sister and I know she will be great at it.

At one year old, Jaynann is full of happiness. She loves me! I know because I feel it all the time. She obeys when I told her not to open the drawers or jump in the tub when I take a shower. It surprised me when Jaynann listens. I guess I wouldn't listen to my mother if she said no to me. She also likes to read--she starts reading even before opening the book. She also likes to walk since now it becomes her new thing to do. She navigates whoever is holding her hand to tell them to go a certain way. One day in Page, AZ. We were walking by the swimming pool. Jaynann walked toward the gate and didn't want to leave. She almost cried when we told her no. Yes, she loves to swim. It is her fearless activity when we travel. She swims like she knows how. I am so impressed when I see her in the water. Ed usually takes in on his shoulders and goes up and down in the water, Jaynann loves it. My baby is loving. She likes to smile to people. Even though she gets pretty shy around guys, she usually likes them a bit later after firthing with them. After grandma left today. Jaynann went to check her bed. She usually slept with her in the morning. My mom covered her head sometimes when she slept so Jaynann today opened a blanket. Except today grandma wasn't there under the cover anymore. It broke my heart since they became best of friends. She loved to play peekaboo with her and cuddle with her under the blanket. I am sure it is hard for my mother also to leave such a adorable baby who has such a loving heart. Anyway, I just miss seeing her smiles everytime my mother did something funny. I guess I pretty much described most of Jaynann's personalities. I just feel so warm when I think of her.

One her 1st birthday we bought her a kitty cupcake and a pinata. It was a big yellow bird filled with tons of daddy's goodies. She opened her presents with laughter and smiles. She was so happy. I looked at her and felt so proud to be her mom. She didn't eat her cupcake; I let her play with it until it turned into a big mess. Well, I guess some pictures can describe what happened that day. But all I want to say is I love Jaynann.